Dec 4, 2005

Another Day...Another Start



Couldnt think of anything else after hours of aimless browsing... After weeks of CAT preparation which kept me busy, i'm sort of free now.. Infact, i'm feeling a kind of vacuum.. Not that I dont have anything to do..JMET is coming up next week.. But somehow, not in a mood to study after CAT...

Now, a little bit of my thoughts... I'm looking back at my career now.. Can I call it a success ?
Dont know... I began to look at my studies with an earnest mind only after 10th..Slogged throughout plus two for IIT.. Reached NITC..I cant really complain about that..Maybe, I was not that talented. Like this, my life has been full of near misses or I never really got what i wanted..

Now, i'm at the threshold of another turning point.. MBA..Can't really say at this moment whether I'll do it or not..

Perhaps , I would pose myself a question at this point..What made me take up this pursuit ?
Well, every year people churn out numerous SOP's for applying to various institutes..And atleast 90 percent of that is crap..What really drives a person to M-tech or MBA.. The frank answer would be money and success. Stepping a bit further into these areas, how can a teenaged boy/girl decide to take engineering / medicine when he's abt 15 - 17 ?
I would say, perhaps no other profession gets into ones head at that time.. It is just peer and parent pressure which prompts the teenage brigade ( atleast most of those ) into these sacrosanct
career avenues..


At this stage, I feel I've to look into what I want to do in my career... I dont want to do mundane coding and bug-fixing throughout my career ( There's a chance that I'd , if i dont get into another arena ).. Neither do I want to end up in an i-bank wasting the prime of my life just making money and losing out on life... Or , like many ppl do, i dont want to do some job abroad for some time , make money and settle home quietly..

I need to strike a balance..I know the value of money very well..I need to have a decent amount of money so that I dont have to suffer... I need life..Friends,family..everyone..
And I wish I could contribute something to the nation..A land which provided me with this much comforts..i need to giv back something to India...
It is this balancing act which all of us search.. I hope my search doesnt end in futility..Neither do yours.. In this journey called life, we take many routes.. and endup somewhere wondering whether we really intended to take this path. .

At the end of the day,it doesnt really matter which route you took..What matters is whether u succeeded or not... And success in life , is again another relativistic term...
I've read somewhere.. "If you manage to contribute something , for which the coming generations will respect , if not admire you, then you have turned your life into a meaninful entity"...


I wish each of us could do that and make this planet a better place to live...


Ajith

2 comments:

Rahul said...

i particularly empathise with how you feel driven to engineering or medical school after high school. I spend a lot of time these days listening to physics lectures and interacting with graduate students there, and realise that if i had the gumption to say no to my father, i would have been doing what i loved today...

AJITH said...

Well, infact I dont feel so much disillusioned with engineering..Neither do I feel so great about having studied it. Its just the fact that we, or most of us didnt consider many alternate routes at that point .Like you, even I wanted to study physics..Took computers because i didnt get electronics... Its another debatable point had we choosen our preferred paths, would we have the comforts and luxuries that we have now.
In India,or atleast in kerala,we are forced to think that these are the only professions that bring you success. Our studies are aimed at getting a job and making money rather than learning things and doing justice to your talents..Society forces us to think into that mentality. Only when you look back, u realise what you've done.