Feb 17, 2008

In Search For an Aim



I've realized something over the last few days.. Unless I have a specific aim(s) , my life is kind of dull.. Infact, if I see no direct utility/purpose in what I'm studying , I tend to take it easy.. I tend to do well in subjects to which I can attach a certain personal/entrepreneurial interest ( not those which may help me in work ) .. During the last week's exam preps, I kept thinking again and again whether these type of complicated formulations would help me in anyway.. Even when I kept telling myself that these may help me at a later point, which I cannot forsee now, I somehow couldnt instil enough interest in myself..

It took back my thought process to a time when I was perhaps in a most inspired/motivated state ..That was during IIT-JEE preps.. Even though I couldnt get in , I still remember that entire period of 2 years during +2 was perhaps the happiest period in my life..And a major reason for that happiness was this motivated state.. or rather obsession with that IIT brand.

After that, further aims/goals/ all have come in my life..but none has motivated me as strong as that IIT dream had at that ripe young age.. Achieved some aims,missed some.. I won't put the cliched saying of 'no regrets' here..I have my own share of regrets :-), but the point is not that..its that for getting back that excitement, I need to set some aim / goal / vision...Again I might not be able to pull back that IIT level motivation..but need to set something thats good enough to motivate me to a decent level..

Current mood :- Highly Arbit & somewhat philosophic

16 comments:

freebird said...

"Getting back that excitement, I need to set some aim / goal / vision"

I think this is the case with most of the people out there. All are searching for the goal but unfortunately we don't know where to look for it.

Rinchen said...

"I've realized something over the last few days.. Unless I have a specific aim(s) , my life is kind of dull.."

That sounds a bit like me on my Pensieve days ( Deepak - hope you have no copyright issues :D )

You wrote 'motivate/ed/tion' five times!

Deepak said...

There there, Rinchen...
Whoever said that girls look for the beauty of heart rather than external beauty....

You seem to be more interested in the number of motivations rather than the philosophical implications of this ergodic outburst of retrospection and contemplation, which is concurrently exact as well as fuzzy.
(*GASPING FOR BREATH*)

Anurag said...

without goals...is like walking blindfolded...rather without direction...we dont reach or even go anywhere

Rinchen said...

@Deepak: What external beauty? God, I must have my brain examined. I dont seem to understand anything these days.

Yeah, I was 'motivated' to count the number of appearances :) After all, while one seldom falls in a Pensieve mood in today's fast-wheezing world (as you just demonstrated), such prolific ramblings must be accredited. Not only for their profound realism but also for their explicit dichotomy; which in its innate form itself is motivational in my opinion.

(Friends, bloggers - lend me your AIR!)

Ajith said...

@freebird -- Worser, sometimes u get confused whether to take something as a goal or not :)

@rinchen -- Repetition is a way of motivations :)

@deepak - U r preparing too much for GRE / TOEFL :) ?

@anurag -- Wah..Kya baat hai :) IIMA philosophy :) ?

@rinchen -- Does this AIR mean 'All India Radio' :) ??

Rinchen said...

@Ajith: I dont know if you're being more like me in not cracking a PJ... or else you're making fun of me?

That line was a rip off of Caeser's 'Friends, Romans & Countrymen - lend me your ear' Only, I tried to focus on the AIR joke of last time :D

Deepak said...

@Rinchen: External beauty is a metaphor. By that, I mean the number of motivations used. By beauty of heart, I mean the crux...the inner meaning of the article written.

And I now understand that you are not someone I should engage in a verbal jousting. :-/

@Ajith: Already prepared for and finished GRE. But that effect hasn't waned. :p

Rinchen said...

@Deepak: Well explained! And good point too. It was quite a candid confession on Ajith's part. I havent thought about it all much except for the aforesaid Pensieve times.

No verbal jousting? Touché.

freebird said...

പഴയ കസ്തൂരിമാനിന്റെ കഥയോര്‍മ്മ വരുന്നു. തന്നില്‍ നിന്ന് പുറപ്പെടുന്ന സുഗന്ധം തിരിച്ചറിയാതെ അതന്വേഷിച്ച് നടക്കുന്ന കസ്തൂരിമാനിന്റെ കഥ.

self realization is the most important thing. isn't it?

Vinay said...

You need a goal, not an aim :)

Anu said...

We all have been there Ajith! So not to worry....Try doing something that interests you and set some goals related to that. It should really be the "motivating" factor.

Bhadra Nair said...

Everybody wants some kind of an excitement in their life..But personaly i believe that excitement comes when u fail to achieve the goals/aims set by you. :P

Ajith said...

@freebird -- Nokkatte :) Self realization is often a mirage :)

@anu -- Well..yeah. Got to find something :)

@bhadra -- Thats an interesting take..U mean to say when we fail, the failure will spur you to reach another goal , increasing your excitement ?

Solitaire said...

Welcome to life. It never ends no matter what age you are.

Drushti said...

Hey,
While reading this post I got reminded of one of my friend who is so passionate about getting into IIM-A, but so far have not made it. Well I agree with you..the entire exercise of aiming and preparing for such goals motivates u at the fullest. It tries to bring out best of our streching capabilities and we feel so very good about our selves...Nice blog ..Keep posting :) !!